we miss you everyday- happy birthday Mom 2-17-2013
Posted Feb 25, 2013 10:04am
The month of February is the month of my mother's birth February
17 1944.
I know that so many of you miss her and I would love to hear from you this month in memory of her. Do you have a memory you would like to share in memory of Reyna, please share your memories of her today.
My memory: my eyes swell when I miss you and my heart burns still at the pain of your physical presence missing. My soul was gone for a while after you left, but the time since you left has given me a chance to grow and find out who i really am. I've never understood what it meant to grieve, to really feel pain to the depth of my entire being. To cry rolled up in a ball by myself until nothing more could be expelled from my body. I learned that crying was good and necessary. I learned to love everything more and everyone while i had them in my midst. To not take things for granted and to let myself hurt for as long and as often as I need to. The pain of losing someone you love is inexplicable unless you have experienced it, it leaves a hole that cannot be filled, ever. But it also is an experience that is a learning not just for me, but also a learning i can share with my boys. I do not hide my pain, it's transluscent. The boys now know what it looks like to grieve and to be sad, they have also felt the pain at a different level. I want them to know and understand every step that i have gone through and to know that life is simply this way. We are not here forever, and that one day we all will take the path to a different place. My pain has allowed me to grow, to be so alone that I never thought alone-ness would leave me. She continues to teach me everyday even without physically being here. Moving through the phases of grieve of life, i continue to learn and grow. I know that my pain will always remain, because i want her here with me selfishly, but i also know that all she wants is happiness for us and to do what's good and right while we are here. I know that she would want the same for everyone she loved and cared for, her family, her friends. you. She was a beautiful woman and i'm glad she was my mother and i know each of you share a special feeling for her as well- today i miss her and this month i miss her and ever day until i'm with her, i will miss her but she still is the light of my life that shines the path to do good- and i will do that while i'm here and teach my children who she was and what she stood for.
Happy Birthday to a wonderful beautiful person,my mother.
You are missed, never forgotten. We know you are orchestrating wonderful things for us when our time comes. I miss you with my whole heart.
Love you with all of me-ginny
I know that so many of you miss her and I would love to hear from you this month in memory of her. Do you have a memory you would like to share in memory of Reyna, please share your memories of her today.
My memory: my eyes swell when I miss you and my heart burns still at the pain of your physical presence missing. My soul was gone for a while after you left, but the time since you left has given me a chance to grow and find out who i really am. I've never understood what it meant to grieve, to really feel pain to the depth of my entire being. To cry rolled up in a ball by myself until nothing more could be expelled from my body. I learned that crying was good and necessary. I learned to love everything more and everyone while i had them in my midst. To not take things for granted and to let myself hurt for as long and as often as I need to. The pain of losing someone you love is inexplicable unless you have experienced it, it leaves a hole that cannot be filled, ever. But it also is an experience that is a learning not just for me, but also a learning i can share with my boys. I do not hide my pain, it's transluscent. The boys now know what it looks like to grieve and to be sad, they have also felt the pain at a different level. I want them to know and understand every step that i have gone through and to know that life is simply this way. We are not here forever, and that one day we all will take the path to a different place. My pain has allowed me to grow, to be so alone that I never thought alone-ness would leave me. She continues to teach me everyday even without physically being here. Moving through the phases of grieve of life, i continue to learn and grow. I know that my pain will always remain, because i want her here with me selfishly, but i also know that all she wants is happiness for us and to do what's good and right while we are here. I know that she would want the same for everyone she loved and cared for, her family, her friends. you. She was a beautiful woman and i'm glad she was my mother and i know each of you share a special feeling for her as well- today i miss her and this month i miss her and ever day until i'm with her, i will miss her but she still is the light of my life that shines the path to do good- and i will do that while i'm here and teach my children who she was and what she stood for.
Happy Birthday to a wonderful beautiful person,my mother.
You are missed, never forgotten. We know you are orchestrating wonderful things for us when our time comes. I miss you with my whole heart.
Love you with all of me-ginny